Lipstick Rising - Prologue
Nothing can prepare you for what lies ahead, what matters is how you respond. Life after 35 can be a lot of things, one thing it is not...impossible.
Allow me to introduce myself, I'm Jia Styles and a year ago, my world was balanced, far from perfect, but I was at peace and things were looking pretty calm. My daughter started college, I purchased a new home, met a great guy, and landed my dream job as a Fashion Director at the prestigious Henrie Malveaux, a couture fashion house in Paris. I guess you can say I had my dream gig, but like all dreams, you have to wake up and that's when things get real. My team was in sync, we were creating great content with fashionable looks, that's the thing about fashion, things are great until they aren't. One fact you cannot escape, people are unpredictable in any aspect of life. As far as my love life, the situation could not have been more dramatic, the only thing that was missing was the Cheaters van and a camera in my face catching all of the rage embodied in my 5'5 frame. By now if you haven't guessed...the handsome hunk is no longer in the picture and rebuilding my dating life has been interesting along with restaffing my team.
Life is tricky. We are our own worst critics on this journey and it does not take long to beat yourself up over the simplest mistakes or shortcomings. It's easier to criticize than to forgive yourself and move on. The important thing is to deal with it and force yourself to move forward because the longer you wallow in self-pity, the less you can accomplish and make the changes necessary to improve your life. This was the hardest lesson for me to learn, but I'm forcing myself into it daily. I know I must because the time will pass anyway, and I have shit I need to do.
If my 14-year-old self could see me now, what would she think? Life isn't what I thought it would be, but hey it could be worse. The dating landscape is a hideous one. The big 4-0 is creeping up on me and I'm not sure if I will travel to Vegas and risk all on the blackjack table or go to the farthest island and lock myself in a hut. One thing is for sure, I will make it a trip to remember.